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I have no idea what to do :cThe title explains a lot more than it normally does.
Yea. I have no idea what to do.
So, for people who don't actually know me face to face...
I was going out with Christian. I fucking loved him. And... I think I still do...
Buy... I'm going out with one of my closest friends, Carter.
I feel like a slut, because I really do still love Christian. Not to mention the fact that I'm not good enough for any guy alive.
I'm a pointless, ugly, wannabee emo girl who scares all the normal people.
I hate talking to people about this, because I hate admitting the truth about what a washed up, dumb bitch I am.
I don't want to destroy one of the only friendships I have.... But right now, I want to crawl in a hole and die.
I don't know if I should break up with Carter, and perminantlly get my wish of lonliness and depression, or if I should just ignore it.
I seriously need some advise before I make a HUGE mistake.
I honestly think I'm going to just barricade myself from everyone.
But tomorrow ((today,
Swallow this!Best title ever.
Anyway, I went to the BVB concert on the 16'th, nd I broke my throat for like... 5 hours.
I haven't gone to school for two days, me and Christian aren't together anymore, and I'm starting a fucking band!
Me and Michelle are starting a band to be more clear.
I got a guitar, I'm going to start taking lessons. and yea.
I have been working on drawing , and I am going to draw something amazing over the weekend while watching resident evil shit... : D
I have offically made my parnets worry for me.
My dad banned me and Connor from Brickleberry, and I suggested we watch it, and he called us into his room, and he said he wouldn't let me draw anymore, and these were my exact words:
"If you do that, I'll get a sharpie and draw on myself, and if you take that away, I'll get a knife and carve shit into my arm."
he looked at me, and then we started watching "Freddy vs. Jason (1)", and started talking about how dumb and incorrect it was... Then I found out my sis
:(my dad didn't buy the VIP tickets. He told me today that he didn't.
He said if I still wanted to go... he would buy normal tickets :c
Guess it doesn't matter.
He buys me a lot of stuff...
I had that coming though.
Shouldn't have gotten my hopes up.
I am a little sad... but hey.
What the fuck can I do?
A little help please...?Ed// thank you soooo much for all the help, you're all really sweet! ;//A//; I got much more help than I thought I would, and I'm so happy about all the individual answers * u * The survey is soon reaching the limit, since it's a free survey I can only get up to 50 answers T u T which is only two answers away, so you may not be able to take it now. But I really appreciate all the answers I got so far, you are all amazing :iconiluplz:
Ahhh;; haven't written a journal in ages, literally >_
Yaayyy!I`m so excited <3 I`ve got my credit card today,but I need a lil help with Pay Pal as i`ve never worked with it,soo if you`re experienced with it plz note me,I`ve got some questions xD a bunch of questions!
OH MAH GURRDHeeeeeelllooooo
I know I`ve been absent for sooo long and I feel really bad about it D:
But guess what,I wanna get back in track,this week i`m getting my credit card,gahhhh finally,and to help myself start spamming arts again I plan to take some commissions,so yep,I kinda..Well..I F**KING MISSED U GUYS Q o Q
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